Writer's block is not fun

July 1, 2019

Hey people.

It's been awhile since I last posted here, which makes me sad because that means nothing has been going on in the Grey Harbor. Writer's block is very real, and is menacing me like never before. I typically don't use this blog to vent my personal ventures or thoughts, but this time it feels necessary.

I released Summer Rain almost 3 years ago, which is insane to me. It feels like I finished that project just a few days ago still. Since then, a lot has happened in my life. I moved from Chicago back to Indianapolis, and slept on my parents' living room floor for most of 2017. During that time, I got a job in IT, and an internship doing sound and production at a church, played a lot of video games when I had the time, but mostly spent that time saving money while I had minimal bills. It was a valuable time I tried not to take for granted.

In early 2018, I moved into an apartment with my brother, to split rent and save a bit more money. Towards the summer of that year I got hired on part time at the church that I was an intern at, which I really loved. It allowed me to keep my audio skills sharp, but I loved the people I worked with. I felt like I truly had a group I could work closely with on a weekly basis doing something I loved.

Later in that summer, that church group sprouted a romantic love as well, which lasted a few months. I'm still dealing with that. It's not great. It's a bit different than the last couple heartbreaks I've had, but it's not something I can explain fully. I thought it would spark a ton of inspiration for songwriting, but so far it has hindered me useless in a lot of areas of my life. I don't wish heartbreak of any kind upon anyone, but chances are if you're reading this, you've experienced it in some way. There's that feeling of meaninglessness, as if you had a plan that was torn up in front of your face and you are back at square one, picking up the torn pieces along the way. It's been almost 5 months, and I still haven't found a piece yet.

Those months were the best months I've had in the last 5 years, for sure. However, I struggled with writing in those times as well. A lot was going on, but I always attempted to jot down some song ideas or snippets of lyrics. They will definitely be used, but they didn't get anywhere then. It's frustrating, because I keep thinking back to early high school, when I'd sit down after everyone was asleep and I could pump out a whole song or two in one sitting, easily. It's something that comes naturally to me, but I'm not feeling it in this season of my life. There are lots of ways that people have come up with to spark creativity and help remedy writer's block. I haven't really tried much yet, but I may take a peek.

One thing I am trying is revisiting a few of my existing songs. I'm recording alternate versions, arranging them in a slightly different way. Some may be more acoustic, or more atmospheric, or something else. These may be from Summer Rain, and I may pull from stuff even older than that. It'll be interesting to see if it helps spark anything new in me. You can see a sneak preview on my Instagram.

Anyway, I guess I figured I should let those that don't know me personally what's going on. And to those that do know me, thanks for taking an interest. I want to make a new record really bad right now. I hope to have some stuff out as soon as I can. If you want to keep up with me in the meantime, I'm more active on my personal Twitter. Otherwise, follow me on the Grey Harbor accounts!

Thanks y'all.

• brad